Friendly, person-centred readings by a practitioner with over twenty years experience.
You mean all torn-up inside?
It's because a new phase of your life is hovering in front of you, but you haven't done what's necessary to bring it into being just yet.
Don't under-value what you're feeling. This is not simply some passing mood, but an indication of issues that lie much deeper. Love is at stake. What will happen in the rest of your life is also hanging in the balance. You may need to get active and make some definite decisions and choices. Above all, you need to be sure that the choices you make are your choices, and not ones forced upon you by convenience, or taken out of laziness. (There will be a temptation to go down this path of least resistance. It might be wise to watch yourself carefully and make sure you don't.)
If you do go ahead and make positive changes, don't expect things to get easier immediately. There are signs that you're coasting at the moment, not really trying as hard as you could. Taking more control brings more responsibility and demands greater effort. Adam and Eve weren't happy when they got thrown out of the garden of Eden. At first it was tough, and there were all sorts of sufferings. But if they hadn't had themselves booted out of Paradise, they'd never have worked their way toward realising themselves as human beings.
It's not that I'm implying you're currently living in 'Paradise', but I hope you can see where I'm going with this!
I wish you all the best.